Tagore: The Gardener

幸勿相忘

THE GARDENER

        By Rabindranath Tagore
      Translated by the author from the original Bengali
  

                  To

           W. B. Yeats

Preface

Most of the lyrics of love and life, the translations of whichfrom Bengali are published in this book, were written muchearlier than the series of religious poems contained in the book named _Gitanjali_.  The translations are not always literal--the originals being sometimes abridged and sometimesparaphrased.
                                                      - Rabindranath Tagore.



1

SERVANT.  Have mercy upon your servant, my queen!

QUEEN.  The assembly is over and my servants are all gone.  Why
  do you come at this late hour?

SERVANT.  When you have finished with others, that is my time.
I come to ask what remains for your last servant to do.

QUEEN.  What can you expect when it is too late?

SERVANT.  Make me the gardener of your flower garden.

QUEEN.  What folly is this?

SERVANT.  I will give up my other work.
I will throw my swords and lances down in the dust.  Do not send
  me to distant courts; do not bid me undertake new conquests.
  But make me the gardener of your flower garden.

QUEEN.  What will your duties be?

SERVANT.  The service of your idle days.
I will keep fresh the grassy path where you walk in the morning,
  where your feet will be greeted with praise at every step by
  the flowers eager for death.
I will swing you in a swing among the branches of the
  saptaparna, where the early evening moon will struggle
  to kiss your skirt through the leaves.
I will replenish with scented oil the lamp that burns by your
  bedside, and decorate your footstool with sandal and saffron
  paste in wondrous designs.

QUEEN.  What will you have for your reward?

SERVANT.  To be allowed to hold your little fists like tender
  lotus-buds and slip flower chains over your wrists; to tinge
  the soles of your feet with the red juice of ashoka
  petals and kiss away the speck of dust that may chance to
  linger there.

QUEEN.  Your prayers are granted, my servant, you will be the
  gardener of my flower garden.


2

"Ah, poet, the evening draws near; your hair is turning grey.
"Do you in your lonely musing hear the message of the hereafter?"

"It is evening," the poet said, "and I am listening because some
  one may call from the village, late though it be.
"I watch if young straying hearts meet together, and two pairs of
  eager eyes beg for music to break their silence and speak for
  them.
"Who is there to weave their passionate songs, if I sit on the
  shore of life and contemplate death and the beyond?

"The early evening star disappears.
"The glow of a funeral pyre slowly dies by the silent river.
"Jackals cry in chorus from the courtyard of the deserted house
  in the light of the worn-out moon.
"If some wanderer, leaving home, come here to watch the night and
  with bowed head listen to the murmur of the darkness, who is
  there to whisper the secrets of life into his ears if I,
  shutting my doors, should try to free myself from mortal bonds?

"It is a trifle that my hair is turning grey.
"I am ever as young or as old as the youngest and the oldest of
  this village.
"Some have smiles, sweet and simple, and some a sly twinkle in
  their eyes.
"Some have tears that well up in the daylight, and others tears
  that are hidden in the gloom.
They all have need for me, and I have no time to brood over the
  afterlife.
"I am of an age with each, what matter if my hair turns grey?"


3

In the morning I cast my net into the sea.
I dragged up from the dark abyss things of strange aspect and
  strange beauty--some shone like a smile, some glistened like
  tears, and some were flushed like the cheeks of a bride.
When with the day's burden I went home, my love was sitting in
  the garden idly tearing the leaves of a flower.
I hesitated for a moment, and then placed at her feet all that I
  had dragged up, and stood silent.
She glanced at them and said, "What strange things are these?  I
  know not of what use they are!"
I bowed my head in shame and thought, "I have not fought for
  these, I did not buy them in the market; they are not fit gifts
  for her."
Then the whole night through I flung them one by one into the
  street.
In the morning travellers came; they picked them up and carried
  them into far countries.


4

Ah me, why did they build my house by the road to the market
  town?
They moor their laden boats near my trees.
They come and go and wander at their will.
I sit and watch them; my time wears on.
Turn them away I cannot.  And thus my days pass by.

Night and day their steps sound by my door.
Vainly I cry, "I do not know you."
Some of them are known to my fingers, some to my nostrils, the
  blood in my veins seems to know them, and some are known to my
  dreams.
Turn them away I cannot.  I call them and say, "Come to my house
  whoever chooses.  Yes, come."

In the morning the bell rings in the temple.
They come with their baskets in their hands.
Their feet are rosy red.  The early light of dawn is on their
  faces.
Turn them away I cannot.  I call them and I say, "Come to my
  garden to gather flowers.  Come hither."

In the mid-day the gong sounds at the palace gate.
I know not why they leave their work and linger near my hedge.
The flowers in their hair are pale and faded; the notes are
  languid in their flutes.
Turn them away I cannot.  I call them and say, "The shade is cool
  under my trees.  Come, friends."

At night the crickets chirp in the woods.
Who is it that comes slowly to my door and gently knocks?
I vaguely see the face, not a word is spoken, the stillness of
  the sky is all around.
Turn away my silent guest I cannot.  I look at the face through
  the dark, and hours of dreams pass by.


5

I am restless.  I am athirst for far-away things.
My soul goes out in a longing to touch the skirt of the dim
  distance.
O Great Beyond, O the keen call of thy flute!
I forget, I ever forget, that I have no wings to fly, that I am
  bound in this spot evermore.

I am eager and wakeful, I am a stranger in a strange land.
Thy breath comes to me whispering an impossible hope.
Thy tongue is known to my heart as its very own.
O Far-to-seek, O the keen call of thy flute!
I forget, I ever forget, that I know not the way, that I have not
  the winged horse.

I am listless, I am a wanderer in my heart.
In the sunny haze of the languid hours, what vast vision of thine
  takes shape in the blue of the sky!
O Farthest end, O the keen call of thy flute!
I forget, I ever forget, that the gates are shut everywhere in
  the house where I dwell alone!


6

The tame bird was in a cage, the free bird was in the forest.
They met when the time came, it was a decree of fate.
The free bird cries, "O my love, let us fly to wood."
The cage bird whispers, "Come hither, let us both live in the
  cage."
Says the free bird, "Among bars, where is there room to spread
  one's wings?"
"Alas," cries the cage bird, "I should not know where to sit
  perched in the sky."

The free bird cries, "My darling, sing the songs of the
  woodlands."
The cage bird says, "Sit by my side, I'll teach you the speech of
  the learned."
The forest bird cries, "No, ah no! songs can never be taught."
The cage bird says, "Alas for me, I know not the songs of the
  woodlands."

Their love is intense with longing, but they never can fly wing
  to wing.
Through the bars of the cage they look, and vain is their wish to
  know each other.
They flutter their wings in yearning, and sing, "Come closer, my
  love!"
The free bird cries, "It cannot be, I fear the closed doors of
  the cage."
The cage bird whispers, "Alas, my wings are powerless and dead."


7

O mother, the young Prince is to pass by our door,--how can I
  attend to my work this morning?
Show me how to braid up my hair; tell me what garment to put on.
Why do you look at me amazed, mother?
I know well he will not glance up once at my window; I know he
  will pass out of my sight in the twinkling of an eye; only the
  vanishing strain of the flute will come sobbing to me from
  afar.
But the young Prince will pass by our door, and I will put on my
  best for the moment.

O mother, the young Prince did pass by our door, and the morning
  sun flashed from his chariot.
I swept aside the veil from my face, I tore the ruby chain from
  my neck and flung it in his path.
Why do you look at me amazed, mother?
I know well he did not pick up my chain; I know it was crushed
  under his wheels leaving a red stain upon the dust, and no one
  knows what my gift was nor to whom.
But the young Prince did pass by our door, and I flung the jewel
  from my breast before his path.


8

When the lamp went out by my bed I woke up with the early birds.
I sat at my open window with a fresh wreath on my loose hair.
The young traveller came along the road in the rosy mist of the
  morning.
A pearl chain was on his neck, and the sun's rays fell on his
  crown.  He stopped before my door and asked me with an eager
  cry, "Where is she?"
For very shame I could not say, "She is I, young traveller, she
  is I."

It was dusk and the lamp was not lit.
I was listlessly braiding my hair.
The young traveller came on his chariot in the glow of the
  setting sun.
His horses were foaming at the mouth, and there was dust on his
  garment.
He alighted at my door and asked in a tired voice, "Where is
  she?"
For very shame I could not say, "She is I, weary traveller, she
  is I."

It is an April night.  The lamp is burning in my room.
The breeze of the south comes gently.  The noisy parrot sleeps in
  its cage.
My bodice is of the colour of the peacock's throat, and my mantle
  is green as young grass.
I sit upon the floor at the window watching the deserted street.
Through the dark night I keep humming, "She is I, despairing
  traveller, she is I."


9

When I go alone at night to my love-tryst, birds do not sing, the
  wind does not stir, the houses on both sides of the street
  stand silent.
It is my own anklets that grow loud at every step and I am
  ashamed.

When I sit on my balcony and listen for his footsteps, leaves do
  not rustle on the trees, and the water is still in the river
  like the sword on the knees of a sentry fallen asleep.
It is my own heart that beats wildly--I do not know how to quiet
  it.

When my love comes and sits by my side, when my body trembles and
  my eyelids droop, the night darkens, the wind blows out the
  lamp, and the clouds draw veils over the stars.
It is the jewel at my own breast that shines and gives light.  I
  do not know how to hide it.


10

Let your work be, bride.  Listen, the guest has come.
Do you hear, he is gently shaking the chain which fastens the
  door?
See that your anklets make no loud noise, and that your step is
  not over-hurried at meeting him.
Let your work be, bride, the guest has come in the evening.

No, it is not the ghostly wind, bride, do not be frightened.
It is the full moon on a night of April; shadows are pale in the
  courtyard; the sky overhead is bright.
Draw your veil over your face if you must, carry the lamp to the
  door if you fear.
No, it is not the ghostly wind, bride, do not be frightened.

Have no word with him if you are shy; stand aside by the door
  when you meet him.
If he asks you questions, and if you wish to, you can lower your
  eyes in silence.
Do not let your bracelets jingle when, lamp in hand, you lead him
  in.
Have no word with him if you are shy.

Have you not finished your work yet, bride?  Listen, the guest
  has come.
Have you not lit the lamp in the cowshed?
Have you not got ready the offering basket for the evening
  service?
Have you not put the red lucky mark at the parting of your hair,
  and done your toilet for the night?
O bride, do you hear, the guest has come?
Let your work be!


11

Come as you are; do not loiter over your toilet.
If your braided hair has loosened, if the parting of your hair be
  not straight, if the ribbons of your bodice be not fastened, do
  not mind.
Come as you are; do not loiter over your toilet.

Come, with quick steps over the grass.
If the raddle come from your feet because of the dew, if the
  rings of bells upon your feet slacken, if pearls drop out of
  your chain, do not mind.
Come with quick steps over the grass.

Do you see the clouds wrapping the sky?
Flocks of cranes fly up from the further river-bank and fitful
  gusts of wind rush over the heath.
The anxious cattle run to their stalls in the village.
Do you see the clouds wrapping the sky?

In vain you light your toilet lamp--it flickers and goes out in
  the wind.
Who can know that your eyelids have not been touched with lamp-
  black?  For your eyes are darker than rain-clouds.
In vain you light your toilet lamp--it goes out.

Come as you are; do not loiter over your toilet.
If the wreath is not woven, who cares; if the wrist-chain has not
  been linked, let it be.
The sky is overcast with clouds--it is late.
Come as you are; do not loiter over your toilet.


12

If you would be busy and fill your pitcher, come, O come to my
  lake.
The water will cling round your feet and babble its secret.
The shadow of the coming rain is on the sands, and the clouds
  hang low upon the blue lines of the trees like the heavy hair
  above your eyebrows.
I know well the rhythm of your steps, they are beating in my
  heart.
Come, O come to my lake, if you must fill your pitcher.

If you would be idle and sit listless and let your pitcher float
  on the water, come, O come to my lake.
The grassy slope is green, and the wild flowers beyond number.
Your thoughts will stray out of your dark eyes like birds from
  their nests.
Your veil will drop to your feet.
Come, O come to my lake if you must sit idle.

If you would leave off your play and dive in the water, come, O
  come to my lake.
Let your blue mantle lie on the shore; the blue water will cover
  you and hide you.
The waves will stand a-tiptoe to kiss your neck and whisper in
  your ears.
Come, O come to my lake, if you would dive in the water.

If you must be mad and leap to your death, come, O come to my
  lake.
It is cool and fathomlessly deep.
It is dark like a sleep that is dreamless.
There in its depths nights and days are one, and songs are
  silence.
Come, O come to my lake, if you would plunge to your death.


13

I asked nothing, only stood at the edge of the wood behind the
  tree.
Languor was still upon the eyes of the dawn, and the dew in the
  air.
The lazy smell of the damp grass hung in the thin mist above the
  earth.
Under the banyan tree you were milking the cow with your hands,
  tender and fresh as butter.
And I was standing still.

I did not say a word.  It was the bird that sang unseen from the
  thicket.
The mango tree was shedding its flowers upon the village road,
  and the bees came humming one by one.
On the side of the pond the gate of _Shiva's_ temple was
  opened and the worshipper had begun his chants.
With the vessel on your lap you were milking the cow.
I stood with my empty can.

I did not come near you.
The sky woke with the sound of the gong at the temple.
The dust was raised in the road from the hoofs of the driven
  cattle.
With the gurgling pitchers at their hips, women came from the
  river.
Your bracelets were jingling, and foam brimming over the jar.
The morning wore on and I did not come near you.


14

I was walking by the road, I do not know why, when the noonday
  was past and bamboo branches rustled in the wind.
The prone shadows with their out-stretched arms clung to the feet
  of the hurrying light.
The koels were weary of their songs.
I was walking by the road, I do not know why.

The hut by the side of the water is shaded by an overhanging
  tree.
Some one was busy with her work, and her bangles made music in
  the corner.
I stood before this hut, I know not why.

The narrow winding road crosses many a mustard field, and many a
  mango forest.
It passes by the temple of the village and the market at the
  river landing place.
I stopped by this hut, I do not know why.

Years ago it was a day of breezy March when the murmur of the
  spring was languorous, and mango blossoms were dropping on the
  dust.
The rippling water leapt and licked the brass vessel that stood
  on the landing step.
I think of that day of breezy March, I do not know why.

Shadows are deepening and cattle returning to their folds.
The light is grey upon the lonely meadows, and the villagers are
  waiting for the ferry at the bank.
I slowly return upon my steps, I do not know why.


15

I run as a musk-deer runs in the shadow of the forest mad with
  his own perfume.
The night is the night of mid-May, the breeze is the breeze of
  the south.
I lose my way and I wander, I seek what I cannot get, I get what
  I do not seek.

From my heart comes out and dances the image of my own desire.
The gleaming vision flits on.
I try to clasp it firmly, it eludes me and leads me astray.
I seek what I cannot get, I get what I do not seek.


16

Hands cling to hands and eyes linger on eyes: thus begins the
  record of our hearts.
It is the moonlit night of March; the sweet smell of _henna_
  is in the air; my flute lies on the earth neglected and your
  garland of flowers in unfinished.
This love between you and me is simple as a song.

Your veil of the saffron colour makes my eyes drunk.
The jasmine wreath that you wove me thrills to my heart like
  praise.
It is a game of giving and withholding, revealing and screening
  again; some smiles and some little shyness, and some sweet
  useless struggles.
This love between you and me is simple as a song.

No mystery beyond the present; no striving for the impossible; no
  shadow behind the charm; no groping in the depth of the dark.
This love between you and me is simple as a song.

We do not stray out of all words into the ever silent; we do not
  raise our hands to the void for things beyond hope.
It is enough what we give and we get.
We have not crushed the joy to the utmost to wring from it the
  wine of pain.
This love between you and me is simple as a song.


17

The yellow bird sings in their tree and makes my heart dance with
  gladness.
We both live in the same village, and that is our one piece of
  joy.
Her pair of pet lambs come to graze in the shade of our garden
  trees.
If they stray into our barley field, I take them up in my arms.
The name of our village is Khanjan, and Anjan they call our
  river.
My name is known to all the village, and her name is Ranjan.

Only one field lies between us.
Bees that have hived in our grove go to seek honey in theirs.
Flowers launched from their landing-stairs come floating by the
  stream where we bathe.
Baskets of dried kusm flowers come from their fields to
  our market.
The name of our village is Khanjan, and Anjan they call our
  river.
My name is known to all the village, and her name is Ranjan.

The lane that winds to their house is fragrant in the spring with
  mango flowers.
When their linseed is ripe for harvest the hemp is in bloom in
  our field.
The stars that smile on their cottage send us the same twinkling
  look.
The rain that floods their tank makes glad our kadam
  forest.
The name of our village is Khanjan, and Anjan they call our
  river.
My name is known to all the village, and her name is Ranjan.


18

When the two sisters go to fetch water, they come to this spot
  and they smile.
They must be aware of somebody who stands behind the trees
  whenever they go to fetch water.

The two sisters whisper to each other when they pass this spot.
They must have guessed the secret of that somebody who stands
  behind the trees whenever they go to fetch water.

Their pitchers lurch suddenly, and water spills when they reach
  this spot.
They must have found out that somebody's heart is beating who
  stands behind the trees whenever they go to fetch water.

The two sisters glance at each other when they come to this spot,
  and they smile.
There is a laughter in their swift-stepping feet, which makes
  confusion in somebody's mind who stands behind the trees
  whenever they go to fetch water.


19

You walked by the riverside path with the full pitcher upon your
  hip.
Why did you swiftly turn your face and peep at me through your
  fluttering veil?
That gleaming look from the dark came upon me like a breeze that
  sends a shiver through the rippling water and sweeps away to
  the shadowy shore.
It came to me like the bird of the evening that hurriedly flies
  across the lampless room from the one open window to the other,
  and disappears in the night.
You are hidden as a star behind the hills, and I am a passer-by
  upon the road.
But why did you stop for a moment and glance at my face through
  your veil while you walked by the riverside path with the full
  pitcher upon your hip?


20

Day after day he comes and goes away.
Go, and give him a flower from my hair, my friend.
If he asks who was it that sent it, I entreat you do not tell him
  my name--for he only comes and goes away.

He sits on the dust under the tree.
Spread there a seat with flowers and leaves, my friend.
His eyes are sad, and they bring sadness to my heart.
He does not speak what he has in mind; he only comes and goes
  away.


21

Why did he choose to come to my door, the wandering youth, when
  the day dawned?
As I come in and out I pass by him every time, and my eyes are
  caught by his face.
I know not if I should speak to him or keep silent.  Why did he
  choose to come to my door?

The cloudy nights in July are dark; the sky is soft blue in the
  autumn; the spring days are restless with the south wind.
He weaves his songs with fresh tunes every time.
I turn from my work and my eyes fill with the mist.  Why did he
  choose to come to my door?


22

When she passed by me with quick steps, the end of her skirt
  touched me.
From the unknown island of a heart came a sudden warm breath of
  spring.
A flutter of a flitting touch brushed me and vanished in a
  moment, like a torn flower petal blown in the breeze.
It fell upon my heart like a sigh of her body and whisper of her
  heart.


23

Why do you sit there and jingle your bracelets in mere idle
  sport?
Fill your pitcher.  It is time for you to come home.

Why do you stir the water with your hands and fitfully glance at
  the road for some one in mere idle sport?
Fill your pitcher and come home.

The morning hours pass by--the dark waters flows on.
The waves are laughing and whispering to each other in mere idle
  sport.

The wandering clouds have gathered at the edge of the sky on
  yonder rise of the land.
They linger and look at your face and smile in mere idle sport.
Fill your pitcher and come home.


24

Do not keep to yourself the secret of your heart, my friend!
Say it to me, only to me, in secret.
You who smile so gently, softly whisper, my heart will hear it,
  not my ears.

The night is deep, the house is silent, the birds' nests are
  shrouded with sleep.
Speak to me through hesitating tears, through faltering smiles,
  through sweet shame and pain, the secret of your heart!


25

"Come to us, youth, tell us truly why there is madness in your
  eyes?"
"I know not what wine of wild poppy I have drunk, that there is
  this madness in my eyes."
"Ah, shame!"
"Well, some are wise and some foolish, some are watchful and some
  careless.  There are eyes that smile and eyes that weep--and
  madness is in my eyes."

"Youth, why do you stand so still under the shadow of the tree?"
"My feet are languid with the burden of my heart, and I stand
  still in the shadow."
"Ah, shame!"
"Well, some march on their way and some linger, some are free and
  some are fettered--and my feet are languid with the burden of
  my heart."

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26

"What comes from your willing hands I take.  I beg for nothing
  more."
"Yes, yes, I know you, modest mendicant, you ask for all that one
  has."

"If there be a stray flower for me I will wear it in my heart."
"But if there be thorns?"
"I will endure them."
"Yes, yes, I know you, modest mendicant, you ask for all that one
  has."

"If but once you should raise your loving eyes to my face it
  would make my life sweet beyond death."
"But if there by only cruel glances?"
"I will keep them piercing my heart."
"Yes, yes, I know you, modest mendicant, you ask for all that one
  has."


27

"Trust love even if it brings sorrow.  Do not close up your
  heart."
"Ah no, my friend, your words are dark, I cannot understand
  them."

"The heart is only for giving away with a tear and a song, my
  love."
"Ah no, my friend, your words are dark, I cannot understand
  them."

"Pleasure is frail like a dewdrop, while it laughs it dies.  But
  sorrow is strong and abiding.  Let sorrowful love wake in your
  eyes."
"Ah no, my friend, your words are dark, I cannot understand
  them."

"The lotus blooms in the sight of the sun, and loses all that it
  has.  It would not remain in bud in the eternal winter mist."
"Ah no, my friend, your words are dark, I cannot understand
  them."


28

Your questioning eyes are sad.  They seek to know my meaning as
  the moon would fathom the sea.
I have bared my life before your eyes from end to end, with
  nothing hidden or held back.  That is why you know me not.
If it were only a gem I could break it into a hundred pieces and
  string them into a chain to put on your neck.
If it were only a flower, round and small and sweet, I could
  pluck it from its stem to set it in your hair.
But it is a heart, my beloved.  Where are its shores and its
  bottom?
You know not the limits of this kingdom, still you are its queen.
If it were only a moment of pleasure it would flower in an easy
  smile, and you could see it and read it in a moment.
If it were merely a pain it would melt in limpid tears,
reflecting its inmost secret without a word.
But it is love, my beloved.
Its pleasure and pain are boundless, and endless its wants and
  wealth.
It is as near to you as your life, but you can never wholly know
  it.


29

Speak to me, my love!  Tell me in words what you sang.
The night is dark.  The stars are lost in clouds.  The wind is
  sighing through the leaves.
I will let loose my hair.  My blue cloak will cling round me like
  night.  I will clasp your head to my bosom; and there in the
  sweet loneliness murmur on your heart.  I will shut my eyes and
  listen.  I will not look in your face.
When your words are ended, we will sit still and silent.  Only
  the trees will whisper in the dark.
The night will pale.  The day will dawn.  We shall look at each
  other's eyes and go on our different paths.
Speak to me, my love!  Tell me in words what you sang.


30

You are the evening cloud floating in the sky of my dreams.
I paint you and fashion you ever with my love longings.
You are my own, my own, Dweller in my endless dreams!

Your feet are rosy-red with the glow of my heart's desire,
  Gleaner of my sunset songs!
Your lips are bitter-sweet with the taste of my wine of pain.
You are my own, my own, Dweller in my lonesome dreams!

With the shadow of my passion have I darkened your eyes, Haunter
  of the depth of my gaze!
I have caught you and wrapt you, my love, in the net of my music.
You are my own, my own, Dweller in my deathless dreams!


31

My heart, the bird of the wilderness, has found its sky in your
  eyes.
They are the cradle of the morning, they are the kingdom of the
  stars.
My songs are lost in their depths.
Let me but soar in that sky, in its lonely immensity.
Let me but cleave its clouds and spread wings in its sunshine.


32

Tell me if this be all true, my lover, tell me if this be true.
When these eyes flash their lightning the dark clouds in your
  breast make stormy answer.
Is it true that my lips are sweet like the opening bud of the
  first conscious love?
Do the memories of vanished months of May linger in my limbs?
Does the earth, like a harp, shiver into songs with the touch of
  my feet?
Is it then true that the dewdrops fall from the eyes of night
  when I am seen, and the morning light is glad when it wraps my
  body round?
Is it true, is it true, that your love travelled alone through
  ages and worlds in search of me?
That when you found me at last, your age-long desire found utter
  peace in my gentle speech and my eyes and lips and flowing
  hair?
Is it then true that the mystery of the Infinite is written on
  this little forehead of mine?
Tell me, my lover, if all this be true.


33

I love you, beloved.  Forgive me my love.
Like a bird losing its way I am caught.
When my heart was shaken it lost its veil and was naked.  Cover
  it with pity, beloved, and forgive me my love.

If you cannot love me, beloved, forgive me my pain.
Do not look askance at me from afar.
I will steal back to my corner and sit in the dark.
With both hands I will cover my naked shame.
Turn your face from me, beloved, and forgive me my pain.

If you love me, beloved, forgive me my joy.
When my heart is borne away by the flood of happiness, do not
  smile at my perilous abandonment.
When I sit on my throne and rule you with my tyranny of love,
  when like a goddess I grant you my favour, bear with my pride,
  beloved, and forgive me my joy.


34

Do not go, my love, without asking my leave.
I have watched all night, and now my eyes are heavy with sleep.
I fear lest I lose you when I am sleeping.
Do not go, my love, without asking my leave.

I start up and stretch my hands to touch you.  I ask myself, "Is
  it a dream?"
Could I but entangle your feet with my heart and hold them fast
  to my breast!
Do not go, my love, without asking my leave.


35

Lest I should know you too easily, you play with me.
You blind me with flashes of laughter to hide your tears.
I know, I know your art.
You never say the word you would.

Lest I should not prize you, you elude me in a thousand ways.
Lest I should confuse you with the crowd, you stand aside.
I know, I know your art,
You never walk the path you would.

Your claim is more than that of others, that is why you are
  silent.
With playful carelessness you avoid my gifts.
I know, I know your art,
You never will take what you would.


36

He whispered, "My love, raise your eyes."
I sharply chid him, and said "Go!"; but he did not stir.
He stood before me and held both my hands.  I said, "Leave me!";
  but he did not go.

He brought his face near my ear.  I glanced at him and said,
  "What a shame!"; but he did not move.
His lips touched my cheek.  I trembled and said, "You dare too
  much"; but he had no shame.

He put a flower in my hair.  I said, "It is useless!"; but he
  stood unmoved.
He took the garland from my neck and went away.  I weep and ask
  my heart, "Why does he not come back?"


37

Would you put your wreath of fresh flowers on my neck, fair one?
But you must know that the one wreath that I had woven is for the
  many, for those who are seen in glimpses, or dwell in lands
  unexplored, or live in poets' songs.

It is too late to ask my heart in return for yours.
There was a time when my life was like a bud, all its perfume was
  stored in its core.
Now it is squandered far and wide.
Who knows the enchantment that can gather and shut it up again?
My heart is not mine to give to one only, it is given to the
  many.


38

My love, once upon a time your poet launched a great epic in his
  mind.
Alas, I was not careful, and it struck your ringing anklets and
  came to grief.
It broke up into scraps of songs and lay scattered at your feet.
All my cargo of the stories of old wars was tossed by the
  laughing waves and soaked in tears and sank.
You must make this loss good to me, my love.
If my claims to immortal fame after death are shattered, make me
  immortal while I live.
And I will not mourn for my loss nor blame you.


39

I try to weave a wreath all the morning, but the flowers slip and
  they drop out.
You sit there watching me in secret through the corner of your
  prying eyes.
Ask those eyes, darkly planning mischief, whose fault it was.

I try to sing a song, but in vain.
A hidden smile trembles on your lips, ask of it the reason of my
  failure.
Let your smiling lips say on oath how my voice lost itself in
  silence like a drunken bee in the lotus.

It is evening, and the time for the flowers to close their
  petals.
Give me leave to sit by your side, and bid my lips to do the work
  that can be done in silence and in the dim light of stars.


40

An unbelieving smile flits on your eyes when I come to you to
  take my leave.
I have done it so often that you think I will soon return.
To tell you the truth I have the same doubt in my mind.
For the spring days come again time after time; the full moon
  takes leave and comes on another visit, the flowers come again
  and blush upon their branches year after year, and it is likely
  that I take my leave only to come to you again.
But keep the illusion awhile; do not send it away with ungentle
  haste.
When I say I leave you for all time, accept it as true, and let a
  mist of tears for one moment deepen the dark rim of your eyes.
Then smile as archly as you like when I come again.


41

I long to speak the deepest words I have to say to you; but I
  dare not, for fear you should laugh.
That is why I laugh at myself and shatter my secret in jest.
I make light of my pain, afraid you should do so.

I long to tell you the truest words I have to say to you; but I
  dare not, being afraid that you would not believe them.
That is why I disguise them in untruth, saying the contrary of
  what I mean.
I make my pain appear absurd, afraid that you should do so.

I long to use the most precious words I have for you; but I dare
  not, fearing I should not be paid with like value.
That is why I gave you hard names and boast of my callous
  strength.
I hurt you, for fear you should never know any pain.

I long to sit silent by you; but I dare not lest my heart come
  out at my lips.
That is why I prattle and chatter lightly and hide my heart
  behind words.
I rudely handle my pain, for fear you should do so.

I long to go away from your side; but I dare not, for fear my
  cowardice should become known to you.
That is why I hold my head high and carelessly come into your
  presence.
Constant thrusts from your eyes keep my pain fresh for ever.


42

O mad, superbly drunk;
If you kick open your doors and play the fool in public;
If you empty your bag in a night, and snap your fingers at
  prudence;
If you walk in curious paths and play with useless things;
Reck not rhyme or reason;
If unfurling your sails before the storm you snap the rudder in
  two,
Then I will follow you, comrade, and be drunken and go to the
  dogs.

I have wasted my days and nights in the company of steady wise
  neighbours.
Much knowing has turned my hair grey, and much watching has made
  my sight dim.
For years I have gathered and heaped up scraps and fragments of
  things;
Crush them and dance upon them, and scatter them all to the
  winds.
For I know 'tis the height of wisdom to be drunken and go to the
  dogs.

Let all crooked scruples vanish, let me hopelessly lose my way.
Let a gust of wild giddiness come and sweep me away from my
  anchors.
The world is peopled with worthies, and workers, useful and
  clever.
There are men who are easily first, and men who come decently
  after.
Let them be happy and prosper, and let me be foolishly futile.
For I know 'tis the end of all works to be drunken and go to the
  dogs.

I swear to surrender this moment all claims to the ranks of the
  decent.
I let go my pride of learning and judgment of right and of wrong.
I'll shatter memory's vessel, scattering the last drop of tears.
With the foam of the berry-red wine I will bathe and brighten my
  laughter.
The badge of the civil and staid I'll tear into shreds for the
  nonce.
I'll take the holy vow to be worthless, to be drunken and go to
  the dogs.


43

No, my friends, I shall never be an ascetic, whatever you may say.
I shall never be an ascetic if she does not take the vow with me.
It is my firm resolve that if I cannot find a shady shelter and a
  companion for my penance, I shall never turn ascetic.

No, my friends, I shall never leave my hearth and home, and
  retire into the forest solitude, if rings no merry laughter in
  its echoing shade and if the end of no saffron mantle flutters
  in the wind; if its silence is not deepened by soft whispers.
I shall never be an ascetic.


44

Reverend sir, forgive this pair of sinners.  Spring winds to-day
  are blowing in wild eddies, driving dust and dead leaves away,
  and with them your lessons are all lost.
Do not say, father, that life is a vanity.
For we have made truce with death for once, and only for a few
  fragrant hours we two have been made immortal.

Even if the king's army came and fiercely fell upon us we should
  sadly shake our heads and say, Brothers, you are disturbing us.
  If you must have this noisy game, go and clatter your arms
  elsewhere.  Since only for a few fleeting moments we have been
  made immortal.

If friendly people came and flocked around us, we should humbly
  bow to them and say, This extravagant good fortune is an
  embarrassment to us.  Room is scarce in the infinite sky where
  we dwell.  For in the springtime flowers come in crowds, and
  the busy wings of bees jostle each other.  Our little heaven,
  where dwell only we two immortals, is too absurdly narrow.


45

To the guests that must go bid God's speed and brush away all
  traces of their steps.
Take to your bosom with a smile what is easy and simple and near.
To-day is the festival of phantoms that know not when they die.
Let your laughter be but a meaningless mirth like twinkles of
  light on the ripples.
Let your life lightly dance on the edges of Time like dew on the
  tip of a leaf.
Strike in chords from your harp fitful momentary rhythms.


46

You left me and went on your way.
I thought I should mourn for you and set your solitary image in
  my heart wrought in a golden song.
But ah, my evil fortune, time is short.

Youth wanes year after year; the spring days are fugitive; the
  frail flowers die for nothing, and the wise man warns me that
  life is but a dew-drop on the lotus leaf.
Should I neglect all this to gaze after one who has turned her
  back on me?
That would be rude and foolish, for time is short.

Then, come, my rainy nights with pattering feet; smile, my golden
  autumn; come, careless April, scattering your kisses abroad.
You come, and you, and you also!
My loves, you know we are mortals.  Is it wise to break one's
  heart for the one who takes her heart away?  For time is short.

It is sweet to sit in a corner to muse and write in rhymes that
  you are all my world.
It is heroic to hug one's sorrow and determine not to be
  consoled.
But a fresh face peeps across my door and raises its eyes to my
  eyes.
I cannot but wipe away my tears and change the tune of my song.
For time is short.


47

If you would have it so, I will end my singing.
If it sets your heart aflutter, I will take away my eyes from
  your face.
If it suddenly startles you in your walk, I will step aside and
  take another path.
If it confuses you in your flower-weaving, I will shun your
  lonely garden.
If it makes the water wanton and wild, I will not row my boat by
  your bank.


48

Free me from the bonds of your sweetness, my love!  No more of
  this wine of kisses.
This mist of heavy incense stifles my heart.
Open the doors, make room for the morning light.
I am lost in you, wrapped in the folds of your caresses.
Free me from your spells, and give me back the manhood to offer
  you my freed heart.


49

I hold her hands and press her to my breast.
I try to fill my arms with her loveliness, to plunder her sweet
  smile with kisses, to drink her dark glances with my eyes.
Ah, but, where is it?  Who can strain the blue from the sky?
I try to grasp the beauty, it eludes me, leaving only the body in
  my hands.
Baffled and weary I come back.
How can the body touch the flower which only the spirit may
  touch?


50

Love, my heart longs day and night for the meeting with you--for
  the meeting that is like all-devouring death.
Sweep me away like a storm; take everything I have; break open my
  sleep and plunder my dreams.  Rob me of my world.
In that devastation, in the utter nakedness of spirit, let us
  become one in beauty.
Alas for my vain desire!  Where is this hope for union except in
  thee, my God?


51

Then finish the last song and let us leave.
Forget this night when the night is no more.
Whom do I try to clasp in my arms?  Dreams can never be made
  captive.
My eager hands press emptiness to my heart and it bruises my
  breast.


52

Why did the lamp go out?
I shaded it with my cloak to save it from the wind, that is why
  the lamp went out.

Why did the flower fade?
I pressed it to my heart with anxious love, that is why the
  flower faded.

Why did the stream dry up?
I put a dam across it to have it for my use, that is why the
  stream dried up.

Why did the harp-string break?
I tried to force a note that was beyond its power, that is why
  the harp-string is broken.


53

Why do you put me to shame with a look?
I have not come as a beggar.
Only for a passing hour I stood at the end of your courtyard
  outside the garden hedge.
Why do you put me to shame with a look?

Not a rose did I gather from your garden, not a fruit did I
  pluck.
I humbly took my shelter under the wayside shade where every
  strange traveller may stand.
Not a rose did I pluck.

Yes, my feet were tired, and the shower of rain come down.
The winds cried out among the swaying bamboo branches.
The clouds ran across the sky as though in the flight from
  defeat.
My feet were tired.

I know not what you thought of me or for whom you were waiting at
  your door.
Flashes of lightning dazzled your watching eyes.
How could I know that you could see me where I stood in the dark?
I know not what you thought of me.

The day is ended, and the rain has ceased for a moment.
I leave the shadow of the tree at the end of your garden and this
  seat on the grass.
It has darkened; shut your door; I go my way.
The day is ended.


54

Where do you hurry with your basket this late evening when the
  marketing is over?
They all have come home with their burdens; the moon peeps from
  above the village trees.
The echoes of the voices calling for the ferry run across the
  dark water to the distant swamp where wild ducks sleep.
Where do you hurry with your basket when the marketing is over?

Sleep has laid her fingers upon the eyes of the earth.
The nests of the crows have become silent, and the murmurs of the
  bamboo leaves are silent.
The labourers home from their fields spread their mats in the
  courtyards.
Where do you hurry with your basket when the marketing is over?


55

It was mid-day when you went away.
The sun was strong in the sky.
I had done my work and sat alone on my balcony when you went
  away.

Fitful gusts came winnowing through the smells of many distant
  fields.
The doves cooed tireless in the shade, and a bee strayed in my
  room humming the news of many distant fields.

The village slept in the noonday heat.  The road lay deserted.
In sudden fits the rustling of the leaves rose and died.
I glazed at the sky and wove in the blue the letters of a name I
  had known, while the village slept in the noonday heat.

I had forgotten to braid my hair.  The languid breeze played with
  it upon my cheek.
The river ran unruffled under the shady bank.
The lazy white clouds did not move.
I had forgotten to braid my hair.

It was mid-day when you went away.
The dust of the road was hot and the fields panting.
The doves cooed among the dense leaves.
I was alone in my balcony when you went away.


56

I was one among many women busy with the obscure daily tasks of
  the household.
Why did you single me out and bring me away from the cool shelter
  of our common life?

Love unexpressed in sacred.  It shines like gems in the gloom of
  the hidden heart.  In the light of the curious day it looks
  pitifully dark.
Ah, you broke through the cover of my heart and dragged my
  trembling love into the open place, destroying for ever the
  shady corner where it hid its nest.

The other women are the same as ever.
No one has peeped into their inmost being, and they themselves
  know not their own secret.
Lightly they smile, and weep, chatter, and work.  Daily they go
  to the temple, light their lamps, and fetch water from the
  river.

I hoped my love would be saved from the shivering shame of the
  shelterless, but you turn your face away.
Yes, your path lies open before you, but you have cut off my
  return, and left me stripped naked before the world with its
  lidless eyes staring night and day.


57

I plucked your flower, O world!
I pressed it to my heart and the thorn pricked.
When the day waned and it darkened, I found that the flower had
  faded, but the pain remained.

More flowers will come to you with perfume and pride, O world!
But my time for flower-gathering is over, and through the dark
  night I have not my rose, only the pain remains.


58

One morning in the flower garden a blind girl came to offer me a
  flower chain in the cover of a lotus leaf.
I put it round my neck, and tears came to my eyes.
I kissed her and said, "You are blind even as the flowers are.
"You yourself know not how beautiful is your gift."


59

O woman, you are not merely the handiwork of God, but also of
  men; these are ever endowing you with beauty from their hearts.
Poets are weaving for you a web with threads of golden imagery;
  painters are giving your form ever new immortality.
The sea gives its pearls, the mines their gold, the summer
  gardens their flowers to deck you, to cover you, to make you
  more precious.
The desire of men's hearts has shed its glory over your youth.
You are one half woman and one half dream.


60

Amidst the rush and roar of life, O Beauty, carved in stone, you
  stand mute and still, alone and aloof.
Great Time sits enamoured at your feet and murmurs:
"Speak, speak to me, my love; speak, my bride!"
But your speech is shut up in stone, O Immovable Beauty!

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61

Peace, my heart, let the time for the parting be sweet.
Let it not be a death but completeness.
Let love melt into memory and pain into songs.
Let the flight through the sky end in the folding of the wings
  over the nest.
Let the last touch of your hands be gentle like the flower of the
  night.
Stand still, O Beautiful End, for a moment, and say your last
  words in silence.
I bow to you and hold up my lamp to light you on your way.


62

In the dusky path of a dream I went to seek the love who was mine
  in a former life.

Her house stood at the end of a desolate street.
In the evening breeze her pet peacock sat drowsing on its perch,
  and the pigeons were silent in their corner.

She set her lamp down by the portal and stood before me.
She raised her large eyes to my face and mutely asked, "Are you
  well, my friend?"
I tried to answer, but our language had been lost and forgotten.

I thought and thought; our names would not come to my mind.
Tears shone in her eyes.  She held up her right hand to me.  I
  took it and stood silent.

Out lamp had flickered in the evening breeze and died.


63

Traveller, must you go?
The night is still and the darkness swoons upon the forest.
The lamps are bright in our balcony, the flowers all fresh, and
  the youthful eyes still awake.
Is the time for your parting come?
Traveller, must you go?

We have not bound your feet with our entreating arms.
Your doors are open.  Your horse stands saddled at the gate.
If we have tried to bar your passage it was but with our songs.
Did we ever try to hold you back it was but with our eyes.
Traveller, we are helpless to keep you.  We have only our tears.

What quenchless fire glows in your eyes?
What restless fever runs in your blood?
What call from the dark urges you?
What awful incantation have you read among the stars in the sky,
  that with a sealed secret message the night entered your heart,
  silent and strange?

If you do not care for merry meetings, if you must have peace,
  weary heart, we shall put our lamps out and silence our harps.
We shall sit still in the dark in the rustle of leaves, and the
  tired moon will shed pale rays on your window.
O traveller, what sleepless spirit has touched you from the heart
  of the mid-night?


64

I spent my day on the scorching hot dust of the road.
Now, in the cool of the evening, I knock at the door of the inn.
  It is deserted and in ruins.
A grim _ashath_ tree spreads its hungry clutching roots
  through the gaping fissures of the walls.

Days have been when wayfarers came here to wash their weary feet.
They spread their mats in the courtyard in the dim light of the
  early moon, and sat and talked of strange lands.
They work refreshed in the morning when birds made them glad, and
  friendly flowers nodded their heads at them from the wayside.

But no lighted lamp awaited me when I came here.
The black smudges of smoke left by many a forgotten evening lamp
  stare, like blind eyes, from the wall.
Fireflies flit in the bush near the dried-up pond, and bamboo
  branches fling their shadows on the grass-grown path.
I am the guest of no one at the end of my day.
The long night is before me, and I am tired.


65

Is that your call again?
The evening has come.  Weariness clings around me like the arms
  of entreating love.
Do you call me?

I had given all my day to you, cruel mistress, must you also rob
  me of my night?
Somewhere there is an end to everything, and the loneness of the
  dark is one's own.
Must your voice cut through it and smite me?

Has the evening no music of sleep at your gate?
Do the silent-winged stars never climb the sky above your
  pitiless tower?
Do the flowers never drop on the dust in soft death in your
  garden?

Must you call me, you unquiet one?
Then let the sad eyes of love vainly watch and weep.
Let the lamp burn in the lonely house.
Let the ferry-boat take the weary labourers to their home.
I leave behind my dreams and I hasten to your call.


66

A wandering madman was seeking the touchstone, with matted locks
  tawny and dust-laden, and body worn to a shadow, his lips
  tight-pressed, like the shut-up doors of his heart, his burning
  eyes like the lamp of a glow-worm seeking its mate.

Before him the endless ocean roared.
The garrulous waves ceaselessly talked of hidden treasures,
  mocking the ignorance that knew not their meaning.
Maybe he now had no hope remaining, yet he would not rest, for
  the search had become his life,--
Just as the ocean for ever lifts its arms to the sky for the
  unattainable--
Just as the stars go in circles, yet seeking a goal that can
  never be reached--
Even so on the lonely shore the madman with dusty tawny locks
  still roamed in search of the touchstone.

One day a village boy came up and asked, "Tell me, where did you
  come at this golden chain about your waist?"
The madman started--the chain that once was iron was verily gold;
  it was not a dream, but he did not know when it had changed.
He struck his forehead wildly--where, O where had he without
  knowing it achieved success?
It had grown into a habit, to pick up pebbles and touch the
  chain, and to throw them away without looking to see if a
  change had come; thus the madman found and lost the touchstone.
The sun was sinking low in the west, the sky was of gold.
The madman returned on his footsteps to seek anew the lost
  treasure, with his strength gone, his body bent, and his heart
  in the dust, like a tree uprooted.


67

Though the evening comes with slow steps and has signalled for
  all songs to cease;
Though your companions have gone to their rest and you are tired;
Though fear broods in the dark and the face of the sky is veiled;
Yet, bird, O my bird, listen to me, do not close your wings.

That is not the gloom of the leaves of the forest, that is the
  sea swelling like a dark black snake.
That is not the dance of the flowering jasmine, that is flashing
  foam.
Ah, where is the sunny green shore, where is your nest?
Bird, O my bird, listen to me, do not close your wings.

The lone night lies along your path, the dawn sleeps behind the
  shadowy hills.
The stars hold their breath counting the hours, the feeble moon
  swims the deep night.
Bird, O my bird, listen to me, do not close your wings.

There is no hope, no fear for you.
There is no word, no whisper, no cry.
There is no home, no bed for rest.
There is only your own pair of wings and the pathless sky.
Bird, O my bird, listen to me, do not close your wings.


68

None lives for ever, brother, and nothing lasts for long.  Keep
  that in mind and rejoice.
Our life is not the one old burden, our path is not the one long
  journey.
One sole poet has not to sing one aged song.
The flower fades and dies; but he who wears the flower has not to
  mourn for it for ever.
Brother, keep that in mind and rejoice.

There must come a full pause to weave perfection into music.
Life droops toward its sunset to be drowned in the golden
  shadows.
Love must be called from its play to drink sorrow and be borne to
  the heaven of tears.
Brother, keep that in mind and rejoice.

We hasten to gather our flowers lest they are plundered by the
  passing winds.
It quickens our blood and brightens our eyes to snatch kisses
  that would vanish if we delayed.
Our life is eager, our desires are keen, for time tolls the bell
  of parting.
Brother, keep that in mind and rejoice.

There is not time for us to clasp a thing and crush it and fling
  it away to the dust.
The hours trip rapidly away, hiding their dreams in their skirts.
Our life is short; it yields but a few days for love.
Were it for work and drudgery it would be endlessly long.
Brother, keep that in mind and rejoice.

Beauty is sweet to us, because she dances to the same fleeting
  tune with our lives.
Knowledge is precious to us, because we shall never have time to
  complete it.
All is done and finished in the eternal Heaven.
But earth's flowers of illusion are kept eternally fresh by
  death.
Brother, keep that in mind and rejoice.


69

I hunt for the golden stag.
You may smile, my friends, but I pursue the vision that eludes
  me.
I run across hills and dales, I wander through nameless lands,
  because I am hunting for the golden stag.
You come and buy in the market and go back to your homes laden
  with goods, but the spell of the homeless winds has touched me
  I know not when and where.
I have no care in my heart; all my belongings I have left far
  behind me.
I run across hills and dales, I wander through nameless lands--
  because I am hunting for the golden stag.


70

I remember a day in my childhood I floated a paper boat in the
  ditch.
It was a wet day of July; I was alone and happy over my play.
I floated my paper boat in the ditch.

Suddenly the storm clouds thickened, winds came in gusts, and
  rain poured in torrents.
Rills of muddy water rushed and swelled the stream and sunk my
  boat.
Bitterly I thought in my mind that the storm came on purpose to
  spoil my happiness; all its malice was against me.

The cloudy day of July is long today, and I have been musing over
  all those games in life wherein I was loser.
I was blaming my fate for the many tricks it played on me, when
  suddenly I remembered the paper boat that sank in the ditch.


71

The day is not yet done, the fair is not over, the fair on the
  river-bank.
I had feared that my time had been squandered and my last penny
  lost.
But no, my brother, I have still something left.  My fate has not
  cheated me of everything.

The selling and buying are over.
All the dues on both sides have been gathered in, and it is time
  for me to go home.
But, gatekeeper, do you ask for your toll?
Do not fear, I have still something left.  My fate has not
  cheated me of everything.

The lull in the wind threatens storm, and the lowering clouds in
  the west bode no good.
The hushed water waits for the wind.
I hurry to cross the river before the night overtakes me.
O ferryman, you want your fee!
Yes, brother, I have still something left.  My fate has not
  cheated me of everything.

In the wayside under the tree sits the beggar.  Alas, he looks at
  my face with a timid hope!
He thinks I am rich with the day's profit.
Yes, brother, I have still something left.  My fate has not
  cheated me of everything.

The night grows dark and the road lonely.  Fireflies gleam among
  the leaves.
Who are you that follow me with stealthy silent steps?
Ah, I know, it is your desire to rob me of all my gains.  I will
  not disappoint you!
For I still have something left, and my fate has not cheated me
  of everything.

At midnight I reach home.  My hands are empty.
You are waiting with anxious eyes at my door, sleepless and
  silent.
Like a timorous bird you fly to my breast with eager love.
Ay, ay, my God, much remains still.  My fate has not cheated me
  of everything.


72

With days of hard travail I raised a temple.  It had no doors or
  windows, its walls were thickly built with massive stones.
I forgot all else, I shunned all the world, I gazed in rapt
  contemplation at the image I had set upon the altar.
It was always night inside, and lit by the lamps of perfumed oil.
The ceaseless smoke of incense wound my heart in its heavy coils.
Sleepless, I carved on the walls fantastic figures in mazy
  bewildering lines--winged horses, flowers with human faces,
  women with limbs like serpents.
No passage was left anywhere through which could enter the song
  of birds, the murmur of leaves or hum of the busy village.
The only sound that echoed in its dark dome was that of
  incantations which I chanted.
My mind became keen and still like a pointed flame, my senses
  swooned in ecstasy.
I knew not how time passed till the thunderstone had struck the
  temple, and a pain stung me through the heart.

The lamp looked pale and ashamed; the carvings on the walls, like
  chained dreams, stared meaningless in the light as they would
  fain hide themselves.
I looked at the image on the altar.  I saw it smiling and alive
  with the living touch of God.  The night I had imprisoned had
  spread its wings and vanished.


73

Infinite wealth is not yours, my patient and dusky mother dust!
You toil to fill the mouths of your children, but food is scarce.
The gift of gladness that you have for us is never perfect.
The toys that you make for your children are fragile.
You cannot satisfy all our hungry hopes, but should I desert you
  for that?
Your smile which is shadowed with pain is sweet to my eyes.
Your love which knows not fulfilment is dear to my heart.
From your breast you have fed us with life but not immortality,
  that is why your eyes are ever wakeful.
For ages you are working with colour and song, yet your heaven is
  not built, but only its sad suggestion.
Over your creations of beauty there is the mist of tears.
I will pour my songs into your mute heart, and my love into your
  love.
I will worship you with labour.
I have seen your tender face and I love your mournful dust,
  Mother Earth.


74

In the world's audience hall, the simple blade of grass sits on
  the same carpet with the sunbeam and the stars of midnight.
Thus my songs share their seats in the heart of the world with
  the music of the clouds and forests.
But, you man of riches, your wealth has no part in the simple
  grandeur of the sun's glad gold and the mellow gleam of the
  musing moon.
The blessing of all-embracing sky is not shed upon it.
And when death appears, it pales and withers and crumbles into
  dust.


75

At midnight the would-be ascetic announced:
"This is the time to give up my home and seek for God.  Ah, who
  has held me so long in delusion here?"
God whispered, "I," but the ears of the man were stopped.
With a baby asleep at her breast lay his wife, peacefully
  sleeping on one side of the bed.
The man said, "Who are ye that have fooled me so long?"
The voice said again, "They are God," but he heard it not.
The baby cried out in its dream, nestling close to its mother.
God commanded, "Stop, fool, leave not thy home," but still he
  heard not.
God sighed and complained, "Why does my servant wander to seek
  me, forsaking me?"


76

The fair was on before the temple.  It had rained from the early
  morning and the day came to its end.
Brighter than all the gladness of the crowd was the bright smile
  of a girl who bought for a farthing a whistle of palm leaf.
The shrill joy of that whistle floated above all laughter and
  noise.
An endless throng of people came and jostled together.  The road
  was muddy, the river in flood, the field under water in
  ceaseless rain.
Greater than all the troubles of the crowd was a little boy's
  trouble--he had not a farthing to buy a painted stick.
His wistful eyes gazing at the shop made this whole meeting of
  men so pitiful.


77

The workman and his wife from the west country are busy digging
  to make bricks for the kiln.
Their little daughter goes to the landing-place by the river;
  there she has no end of scouring and scrubbing of pots and
  pans.
Her little brother, with shaven head and brown, naked, mud-
  covered limbs, follows after her and waits patiently on the
  high bank at her bidding.
She goes back home with the full pitcher poised on her head, the
  shining brass pot in her left hand, holding the child with her
  right--she the tiny servant of her mother, grave with the
  weight of the household cares.

One day I saw this naked boy sitting with legs outstretched.
In the water his sister sat rubbing a drinking-pot with a handful
  of earth, turning it round and round.
Near by a soft-haired lamb stood gazing along the bank.
It came close to where the boy sat and suddenly bleated aloud,
  and the child started up and screamed.
His sister left off cleaning her pot and ran up.
She took up her brother in one arm and the lamb in the other, and
  dividing her caresses between them bound in one bond of
  affection the offspring of beast and man.


78

It was in May.  The sultry noon seemed endlessly long.  The dry
  earth gaped with thirst in the heat.
When I heard from the riverside a voice calling, "Come, my
  darling!"
I shut my book and opened the window to look out.
I saw a big buffalo with mud-stained hide, standing near the
  river with placid, patient eyes; and a youth, knee deep in
  water, calling it to its bath.
I smiled amused and felt a touch of sweetness in my heart.


79

I often wonder where lie hidden the boundaries of recognition
  between man and the beast whose heart knows no spoken language.
Through what primal paradise in a remote morning of creation ran
  the simple path by which their hearts visited each other.
Those marks of their constant tread have not been effaced though
  their kinship has been long forgotten.
Yet suddenly in some wordless music the dim memory wakes up and
  the beast gazes into the man's face with a tender trust, and
  the man looks down into its eyes with amused affection.
It seems that the two friends meet masked and vaguely know each
  other through the disguise.


80

With a glance of your eyes you could plunder all the wealth of
  songs struck from poets' harps, fair woman!
But for their praises you have no ear, therefore I come to praise
  you.
You could humble at your feet the proudest heads in the world.
But it is your loved ones, unknown to fame, whom you choose to
  worship, therefore I worship you.
The perfection of your arms would add glory to kingly splendour
  with their touch.
But you use them to sweep away the dust, and to make clean your
  humble home, therefore I am filled with awe.


81

Why do you whisper so faintly in my ears, O Death, my Death?
When the flowers droop in the evening and cattle come back to
  their stalls, you stealthily come to my side and speak words
  that I do not understand.
Is this how you must woo and win me with the opiate of drowsy
  murmur and cold kisses, O Death, my Death?

Will there be no proud ceremony for our wedding?
Will you not tie up with a wreath your tawny coiled locks?
Is there none to carry your banner before you, and will not the
  night be on fire with your red torch-lights, O Death, my Death?

Come with your conch-shells sounding, come in the sleepless
  night.
Dress me with a crimson mantle, grasp my hand and take me.
Let your chariot be ready at my door with your horses neighing
  impatiently.
Raise my veil and look at my face proudly, O Death, my Death!


82

We are to play the game of death to-night, my bride and I.
The night is black, the clouds in the sky are capricious, and the
  waves are raving at sea.
We have left our bed of dreams, flung open the door and come out,
  my bride and I.
We sit upon a swing, and the storm winds give us a wild push from
  behind.
My bride starts up with fear and delight, she trembles and clings
  to my breast.
Long have I served her tenderly.
I made for her a bed of flowers and I closed the doors to shut
  out the rude light from her eyes.
I kissed her gently on her lips and whispered softly in her ears
  till she half swooned in languor.
She was lost in the endless mist of vague sweetness.
She answered not to my touch, my songs failed to arouse her.
To-night has come to us the call of the storm from the wild.
My bride has shivered and stood up, she has clasped my hand and
  come out.
Her hair is flying in the wind, her veil is fluttering, her
  garland rustles over her breast.
The push of death has swung her into life.
We are face to face and heart to heart, my bride and I.


83

She dwelt on the hillside by the edge of a maize-field, near the
  spring that flows in laughing rills through the solemn shadows
  of ancient trees.  The women came there to fill their jars, and
  travellers would sit there to rest and talk.  She worked and
  dreamed daily to the tune of the bubbling stream.

One evening the stranger came down from the cloud-hidden peak;
  his locks were tangled like drowsy snakes.  We asked in wonder,
  "Who are you?"  He answered not but sat by the garrulous stream
  and silently gazed at the hut where she dwelt.  Our hearts
  quaked in fear and we came back home when it was night.

Next morning when the women came to fetch water at the spring by
  the _deodar_ trees, they found the doors open in her hut,
  but her voice was gone and where was her smiling face?  The
  empty jar lay on the floor and her lamp had burnt itself out in
  the corner.  No one knew where she had fled to before it was
  morning--and the stranger had gone.

In the month of May the sun grew strong and the snow melted, and
  we sat by the spring and wept.  We wondered in our mind, "Is
  there a spring in the land where she has gone and where she can
  fill her vessel in these hot thirsty days?"  And we asked each
  other in dismay, "Is there a land beyond these hills where we
  live?"

It was a summer night; the breeze blew from the south; and I sat
  in her deserted room where the lamp stood still unlit.  When
  suddenly from before my eyes the hills vanished like curtains
  drawn aside.  "Ah, it is she who comes.  How are you, my child?
  Are you happy?  But where can you shelter under this open sky?
  And, alas, our spring is not here to allay your thirst."

"Here is the same sky," she said, "only free from the fencing
  hills,--this is the same stream grown into a river,--the same
  earth widened into a plain."  "Everything is here," I sighed,
  "only we are not."  She smiled sadly and said, "You are in my
  heart."  I woke up and heard the babbling of the stream and the
  rustling of the _deodars_ at night.


84

Over the green and yellow rice-fields sweep the shadows of the
  autumn clouds followed by the swift chasing sun.
The bees forget to sip their honey; drunken with light they
  foolishly hover and hum.
The ducks in the islands of the river clamour in joy for mere
  nothing.
Let none go back home, brothers, this morning, let none go to
  work.
Let us take the blue sky by storm and plunder space as we run.
Laughter floats in the air like foam on the flood.
Brothers, let us squander our morning in futile songs.


85

Who are you, reader, reading my poems an hundred years hence?
I cannot send you one single flower from this wealth of the
  spring, one single streak of gold from yonder clouds.
Open your doors and look abroad.
From your blossoming garden gather fragrant memories of the
  vanished flowers of an hundred years before.
In the joy of your heart may you feel the living joy that sang
  one spring morning, sending its glad voice across an hundred
  years.


(1915)

幸勿相忘

INDEX OF FIRST WORDS                                No.

A wandering madman was seeking the touchstone                66
Ah me, why did they build my house                        4
Ah, poet, the evening draws near                        2
Amidst the rush and roar of life                        60
An unbelieving smile flits on your eyes                        40
At midnight the would-be ascetic announced                75

Come as you are; do not loiter over your toilet                11
Come to us, youth, tell us truly                        25

Day after day he comes and goes away                        20
Do not go, my love, without asking my leave                34
Do not keep to yourself the secret of your heart, my friend        24

Free me from the bonds of your sweetness, my love                48

Hands cling to hands and eyes linger on eyes                16
Have mercy upon your servant, my queen                1
He whispered, "My love, raise your eyes"                36

I am restless                                        5
I asked nothing, only stood at the edge of the wood                13
I hold her hands and press her to my breast                49
I hunt for the golden stag                                69
I long to speak the deepest words                        41
I love you, beloved                                33
I often wonder where lie hidden                        79
I plucked your flower, O world                        57
I remember a day in my childhood                        70
I run as a musk-deer runs in the shadow of the forest        15
I spent my day on the scorching hot dust of the road                64
I try to weave a wreath all the morning                        39
I was one among many women                        56
I was walking by the road, I do not know why                14
If you would be busy and fill your pitcher, come                12
If you would have it so, I will end my singing                47
In the dusky path of a dream I went to seek the love                62
In the morning I cast my net into the sea                3
In the world's audience hall                        74
Infinite wealth is not yours                        73
Is that your call again                                65
It was in May                                78
It was mid-day when you want away                        55

Lest I should know you too easily, you play with me                35
Let your work be, bride                                10
Love, my heart longs day and night                        50

My heart, the bird of the wilderness                        31
My love, once upon a time your poet launched a great epic        38

No, my friends, I shall never be an ascetic                43
None lives for ever, brother                        68

O mad, superbly drunk                                42
O mother, the young Prince is to pass by our door                7
O woman, you are not merely the handiwork of God                59
One morning in the flower garden a blind girl came                58
Over the green and yellow rice-fields                        84

Peace, my heart, let the time for the parting be sweet        61

Reverend sir, forgive this pair of sinners                 44

She dwelt on the hillside                                83
Speak to me, my love                                29

Tell me if this be all true, my lover                        32
The day is not yet done, the fair is not over                71
The fair was on before the temple                        76
The tame bird was in a cage                        6
The workman and his wife from the west country                77
The yellow bird sings in their tree                        17
Then finish the last song and let us leave                51
Though the evening comes with slow steps                67
To the guests that must go bid God's speed                45
Traveller, must you go                                63
Trust love even if it brings sorrow                        27

We are to play the game of death to-night                82
What comes from your willing hands I take                26
When I go alone at night to my love-tryst                9
When she passed by me with quick steps                22
When the lamp went out by my bed                        8
When the two sisters go to fetch water                        18
Where do you hurry with your basket                        54
Who are you, reader, reading my poems                85
Why did he choose to come to my door                        21
Why did the lamp go out                                52
Why do you put me to shame with a look                53
Why do you sit there and jingle your bracelets                23
Why do you whisper so faintly in my ears                81
With a glance of your eyes you could plunder                80
With days of hard travail I raised a temple                72
Would you put your wreath of fresh flowers on my neck         37

You are the evening cloud floating in the sky of my dreams        30
You left me and went on your way                        46
You walked by the riverside path                        19
Your questioning eyes are sad                         28

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